Such a Rush

Leah is 14 year old, has lived her whole life in a trailer in South California.
At 14 she ducks under the fence and in to the airport to get a job... and learn to fly.
She forges her mothers signature to get flying lessons with Mr. Hall... actually she pretty much demands the lessons.

3 1/2 years later Mr. Halls is dead and his sons Alec and Grayson are taking over the business, Leah thinks it won't last so she says no to the job cause she want's to have a steady job... but of course Grayson won't take no for an answer... so he blackmails her with the forged signature... to work for him and date Alec... fucked up right??

Well, that goes more or less fine until a party at Francie Mahoney’s house, that she dosn't wanna go to... so she dresses like a slut, to show how much she doesn't wanna go, and there it all goes to hell
... or at least for Leah.
Her ex-boyfriend comes on to her... which ends with Grayson pulling him off her and being extremely rude... like more than his usual jackass self.

“Are you drunk?” Grayson asked.“No,” I said haughtily. “That, among other

things, is a condition of my employment.”“Stoned?”“No.”“Then why did you get within a hundred feet of Mark?”

"I shifted my go-to-hell look to Molly. “And I’m sorry you’re not enjoying it. You told Grayson and Alec last night that you decided to be my friend instead of sticking with Ryan because I’m so fun and brazen for a poor girl. Now you’re saying you don’t want me to dress like a whore and stick up for myself when you drag me to a party thrown by your bitch friend who hates me and calls me trash to my face every time she sees me. You need to make up your mind, girlfriend, how you like your charity case.”

There is a tornado... Grayson comes to get her... that ends with a hot make out session in the basement... but Grayson still want's her to keep working Alec so she gets pissed and kicks him out.
The next day Leah, Grayson, Alec and Molly go to the beach to surf... only problem Leah can't surf... or swim... or drive a car.
So she and Grayson have a Heart-to-Heart and another make out session... but he still wants her working Alec... can i just say I think he is one HOTT jackass asshole scumbag assclown fuckward... why is it always the hott ones??!?!?!!?!?

Well, the next day we find out why Grayson wants her to hook up with Alec...

And Leah's mom comes for a visit... to tell that they are moving to California... that afternoon and makes everything go not to hell, but pretty close... Leah has never changed the story she told her mother at 14 that she spent time with her boyfriend the airport, when she was getting flying lessons... and that boyfriend was Grayson.

So they find out about that she freaks and gets her ass out as fast as she can.

Later that night Grayson comes over... they have sex, but he has to leave so Alec doesn't know he has been there... you guessed right he still want's her to work Alec... uhm, but let me get this straight you want the girl you just fucked to keep going out with your brother... well excuse me but WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU FUCKING BASTARD!!!!!!!!!

It ends with her demanding he tell Alec or she  will... but that won't be necessary since he already knows... Molly told, they have history... and he blames her for not being able to be with Molly...Yaay

She confronts Molly and Molly tells her she is a liar and isn't good enough to be a pilot...

Oh and Grayson fired her... the night after  they had sex... yes guys he did that. Asshole.

So she ends up in a plane with her ex-boyfriend, current asshole adrenalin junkie, he gets pissed at her, doesn't watch where he is flying and crashes in to a tree and gets knocked out, she starts the flying but with a damaged plane there isn't much you can do so she crashes...

It all ends fantastic with sugar on top with hearts, rainbows and dancing fucking unicorns.


Stars:4.5
How come anger toward anyone in books can be solved with a "I'm sorry" and some tears... that is not how it happens in real fucking life, we hold dammed grudges, can't get our head out our asses and can stay angry about some little stupid thing for fucking ages, seriously if my best friend told me i wasn't good enough to have my dream job because i was blackmailed to do something, there is no chance she would anything out of me other than "kiss my ass" and "go fuck yourself".'

I would do pretty much anything for my dream and protect the possibility,  Leah had it the same way, she wanted to be a pilot, so she did what she had to so that wouldn't be jeopardized .. oh and who falls i love with their blackmailer , i know she had a crush on him since 14, but really girl, there are 2 a man who loves a girl doesn't do: beat/rape her and blackmail her or just in general makes her do something she don't want to do... like, lets say DATE HIS FUCKING BROTHER.


What can you use this book for in real life:
Take a chance and it might lead to something better...maybe something like love.

And never go flying with adrenalin junkies it might get you killed

Born in Blood Mafia Chronicles: Bound by Honor

Bound by honor

By Cora Reilly

Synopsis:

This book takes place in the loveless world of the mafia.

Aria Scuderi  is 15 when she gets engaged to  Luca – The Vice – Vitiello he is 5 years older than her.
He is know as The Vice for crushing a mans throat with his bare hands... The first time this made man killed was the age of eleven and saw a man get tortured the same night.

They get married the moment Aria turns 18, the only possible way for Aria to escape the marriage is to run away, but she doesn't have the guts to leave every thing she knows... which is good for us cause we get a beautiful love story.

They get married maybe not a totally happy marriage... since he becomes a cheating mother fucking scum back asshole.

And of course she finds out.

And after that their marriage goes better since he promised not to cheat... which sadly is the best Aria can get.

They slowly falls in love, it becomes a hard but beautiful love, Aria has to fight her way into his cold heart while having to accept some of the things he has to do as Capo for the Famillia. 

But Lucas father gets killed and they have to be apart to protect Aria and so Luca can fight for his title as Capo. 

Unluckily the Russian Mafia attacks the place where Aria and her family were hiding.   

Aria gets shot and Luca for the first time shows weakness by wanting er to take her to the hospital insted of the familia doctor.

“Being born into our world means being born with blood on your hands. With every breath we take sin is engraved deeper into our skin.” 

“You don’t have a choice. There’s no way to escape our world. You didn’t have a choice in marrying me either. If you’d let that bullet kill me, you would have at least escaped our marriage.” 

“There are few good things in our world, Luca, and if you find one you cling to it with all your might. You are one of those good things in my life.” 

“I’m not good,” Luca said almost desperately. 

“You’re not a good man, no. But you are good for me. I feel safe in your arms. I don’t know why, don’t even know why I love you, but I do, and that won’t change.”

Luca closed his eyes, looking almost resigned. “Love is a risk in our world, and a weakness a Capo can’t afford.”

“I know,” I said even as my throat corded up. 

Luca’s eyes shot open, fierce and blazing with emotion. “But I don’t care because loving you is the only pure thing in my life.”

Tears brimmed in my eyes. “You love me?” 

“Yes, even if I shouldn’t. If my enemies knew how much you meant to me, they’d do anything to get their hands on you, to hurt me through you, to control me by threatening

you. The Bratva will try again, and others will too. When I became a made man, I swore to put the Familia first, and I reinforced that same oath when I became a Capo dei Capi even though I knew I was lying. My first choice should always be the Familia.”  

I held my breath, unable to utter a word. The look he gave me almost broke me into pieces. “But you are my first choice, Aria. I’ll burn down the world if I have to. I’ll kill and maim and blackmail. I’ll do anything for you. Maybe love is a risk, but it’s a risk I’m willing to take and as you said, it’s not a choice. I never thought I would, never thought I could love someone like that but I fell in love with you. I fought it. It’s the first battle I didn’t mind losing.”

Stars: 4 stars

I hate the first 5 chapters, never read them.

And every one pisses me off at times... like often, especially Luca, but Aria could piss me and be a little too naive.

What can you use this book for: 
There is always a possibility for love, even in the worst situations, if you simply try hard enough.

Fall Away: Bully

You're poisonous, toxic, bad

for my health. 

You're greedy, sly, way too 

stealth.

You hurt me, use me, mistreat 

and abuse me.

But your apologetic eyes, 

As you tell your lies, 

Draw me back in, 

And I forgive every sin. 

I take you back, 

Your love is my crack. 

I'm clearly a masochist, 

You're my personal terrorist.

My tormentor,  

My lover, 

My bully, 

My friend.

Synopsis:
This is a love/ hate relationship book.
Jared was Tate's best friend until freshman year when he became her bully.
Tate left for Junior year just to get away from the torments, humiliations, being shut out, blacklisted at parties and gossiped about.

She comes back in senior year, with more confidence than when she left. She knows who she is and she won't put up with Jared anymore.

After literally crashing one of Jared's party's
the stakes go up for both of them.

Jared makes an appearance in the girls dressing room... just to piss her off, but it ends with a picture of him and Tate in only a towel.

“You were my tempest, my thunder cloud, my tree in the downpour. I loved all of those things, and I loved you. But now…you’re a fucking drought. I thought that all the assholes drove German cars, but it turns out that pricks in Mustangs can still leave scars."  

But after Tate reads the monologue they have to make for English lit. He starts trying to get her back, firstly by telling her why, after a failed bonfire... including a drunk date and an assault.

After a disturbing revelation they start a relationship, they come to the prom together and come to the after party.

And out there comes a video of them having sex at the after party, which ends with Tate totally
trashing Jared's car.

After her finding out he didn't send the video to humiliate her, but it was one crazy ex-girlfriend that videotaped them while having sex, stealing his cellphone and sending it to the whole school, they go back to their own brand of normal.


Stars: 4.5 loving stars
It was a really good book and different from the normal romance novel, and it goes into some important topics an all, but sometimes in the first half of the book the  hate,anger and sadness she has is very prominent
But hell I couldn't put the fucking book down, when I started I simply couldn't stop


What can you use this book for in real life:
Stay strong, rain can only last so long before the sun comes back... or just trow some attitude and make people respect you.

And never believe hate and anger makes you stronger, it simply makes you an asshole in worldclass