Colorado Mountain: The Gamble

Nina Sheridan is on a"Timeout" from her life... and her fiance and well... he is kind of... how should I put this...clueless.                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

  She rents this nice A-Frame in the Colorado... but the owner Max is there... and he kind of kicks her out... in the middle of the night... a woman alone... in an other country... right that seams like a great idea.

Well, she drives away... and gets stuck in the snow...
She wakes up in a bed... in the A-Frame... sick out of her mind... in her underwear and a mans shirt.
Max nurses her back to health... but won't let her leave when she is back to health.
He called the local taxi service to tell them she had to rest, so she was not  allowed to leave his house

I realized why it was thin when I looked up taxi companies. There was only one. But one was enough.
“Thrifty’s,” a woman answered.
“Hello, my name is Ms. Sheridan and I need a taxi to town.”
There was a pause and then, “Nina?”
My body jolted and then I froze with the phone to my ear.
“Hello?” the voice called.
“Um… yes?”
“This Nina?”
“How do you know who I am?”
“Welp, Max called, said a lady with a fancy accent by the name of Nina would call, askin’ for a taxi. You’re a lady with a fancy accent and you’re askin’ for a taxi. Get some of those callin’ with British accents, not a lot. So I’m takin’ a wild guess. You Nina?”
I wondered if I could make it to Denver then to England before anyone discovered Max’s body. Then I wondered if anyone would bother with extradition if they figured out it was mewho did the deed. That was a lot of paperwork for one big, tall,domineering, jerky mountain man. Then I wondered, considering Max was so tall and big, how I’d kill him.
Then I decided, poison"

And Niles is Niles... she calls half a world away and he doesn't care.. well love maybe you should choose another man.


Max takes her out for dinner... where she meets "She bitch from Hell" also known as Shauna... Max's ex-lover... and lets just say it is ex for a reason.

1. She is a screaming BITCH... definitely deserve Caps Lock 
2. Ice queen of the year
3. Cheater!!!

The next morning the cops come by to get Mac's alibi for a murder of a man... that Max hated... like the rest of the town.

Later Max takes her to The Bluff... his favorite - kind of secret place and they meet Jimmy cotton a great photo artist.

They have a make out session... that ended with Max getting an important call.

And our sweet heroine uses the next two hours writing a e-mail... where she breaks the engagement... over e-mail my friends... really.

Nina wakes up the next... to Mindy being there. And here it goes she gets jealous... but won't admit it... acts like a bitch...
Well it turns out Mindy is like his sister... and she was raped like 3 weeks before... nice Nina, real smooth.


Well, Mindy, Becca and Nina go shopping, and to " The Dog" the local bar... and Mindy's ex show up and get aggressive and Max shows up and teaches him a lesson... beats the living crap out of him.

The next day the cops come by - yet again - this time to get him to talk to Bitsy... the dead guys wife.

Later on she meets Max's sister Kami... and she is just lovely... not.


Nina's hated father shows up being an extreme asshole, jackass, mean bastard, absent father... and he
came because Niles called him... cause why not call the man your fiance hates more than anything.

“You were engaged to him less than a week ago and you’re standing in your nightwear, a bruise on your cheek with a strange man in attendance.”

"Dad was just here.”

There was complete silence.

Then a screeched, “What?”

“Yes. He. Was. Just. Here. Spreading his good will and love all around Max’s entryway. It’s a wonder there aren’t cherubs flying around sprinkling rose petals and rainbows erupting through the windows, an aftermath of his delightful visit"

Seriously, you can just feel the love coming from the pages.


 They go get Bitsy's... to drive her to the police station... but first they go to her place... where Nina finds a picture of Max and his wife, Anna...

And here comes the part were she doubts his love and so on.
In that time Mindy tries to commit suicide, her mother and stepfather show up  she finds out that her ex-fiance is an ass in her fathers league.

The dead guy fucks Max over from the grave by giving him land... that he knows Max won't be able to pay for so he'll have to sell it... which he doesn't want to -  of course cause the place is beautiful and undisturbed

Ohh, and just a question...  how would you feel if the big "meet the parents" moment while you where in the middle of a fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend... and not just the mother but also the bitch sister and her bitch friend, that is also one of your boyfriends ex-lovers... pretty pissed, right, well that happened for poor Nina, but she was... cool... more or less

"They’d heard.

Double wonderful. Darn it all to hell."

And later that morning Kami gets arrested and since Nina is a lawyer she becomes her defense...

That night the everybody goes to The dog for respective girls- and boys night out, Harry is there drinking his sorrows away and when Nina wants to do something nice and be with him he lays all his shit, Max's shit... and Anna

"You’re hot, you’re sweet, you’re even funny. But you should know, what you ain’t is Anna."

"So good, I’ll repeat myself because I figure you’re a good woman and you deserve it and you might be wrapped up in him now but one day you’ll learn you coulda done better. He loved her, Nina, she was his world. When a woman is a man’s world and he loses her, ain’t nothin’ gonna take the place of that and you gotta know that. This is somethin’ he wants, Max’ll do good by you but he’ll know and the whole town’ll know, you ain’t that to him, what Anna was, you never will be. So I’m thinkin’ ,bein’ a good guy and all, you should know that too."

 The next day Max finds out she knew about Anna, they get in a fight and then she leaves.

She goes to a bed and breakfast where she gets attacked by Mindy's ex wanting retribution, Max show up a couple of hours later and get her to a hospital.

They get home, press charges against Damon, they plan an nice dinner... and Nina gets kidnapped...



Stars:
3.85
It is really good and all, it's just... there happens to much, most of the time you forget that it is only two weeks... cause let me see in two weeks she goes to the police station 3 times, the hospital twice, gets kidnapped, there is a murder investigation, she breaks up her engagement, ... and oh right she falls in love... in only two weeks.

But it is really romantic, funny and all... she can just get really hysterical over small thing and also some big, and if he says something sweet she like blushes and all the girlishness.





What can you use this book for in real life:
Live life now, don't waste time making a decision you would have made anyway.

And don't try to be a " bigger man" in a car...

50 shades playlist

So as you guys know I hate the book but if you want to read it anyway it's always better with some music so here comes my 50 shades playlist

1. Toxic - Melanie Martinez
2. Love Me like You Do - Ellie Goulding
3. Earned It - The Weekend
4. Salted Wound - Sia
5. Witchcraft - Frank Sinatra
6. Crazy in Love - Sofia Karlberg
7. La Traviata - Italian weeding music
8. I Put A Spell On You - Annie Lennox
9. Undiscovered - Laura Welsh
10. Meet Me In The Middle - Jessie Ware
11. One Last Night - Vaults
12. Where You Belong - The Weeknd
13. I Know You - Skylar Grey
14. Ana and Christian - Danny Elfman
15. Did That Hurt? - Danny Elfman
16. Toxic Love - Rihanna 
17. Stay - Rihanna
18. We Found Love - Rihanna
19. Cold Case Love - Rihanna
20. Sweet Dreams - Beyoncé

It's inspired from the soundtrack but it has a few of my own touches... but from the original soundtrack i think some of them are shit so they ain't here

Violins of Autumn

“You do know them! You will give us their locations! You will tell us where the weapon drops take place!” 

I spit a mouthful of water on the floor in the direction of the shiny pair of army boots I see there. 

I draw a long breath. 

Down I go again.Garbled voices bounce back and forth above me. 

I strain against the chains, screaming on the inside. Fear eats what little oxygen I have left. 

I am about to drown.  

There is nothing I can do about it."

And that is how the prologue ends...

It took me two tries to start reading it, but when you get in to it, it's a really good book.

Betty... Well actually Adele is a spy for the allied, she is specifically a carrier, bikes around with info, money and other...

In the first chapter she jumps out of a helicopter... and that goes more or less wrong... and just a side comment but are you people Bat Shit Crazy??

"I realize just then that this mission won’t be “like dropping into an easy chair,” as I was told. Somehow I fell for that line at the time. 

Now it sounds like pure nonsense. All I have to do is drop into foreign country, aid and train members of the ever-growing Resistance movement, sabotage railways, travel the country on a bicycle while concealing top-secret information, blow things up, and try not to get killed. 

Sure, easy as pie. 

Things already seem to be going wrong, and I haven’t even reached the ground yet."

She lands in a forest instead of a field as she thought she should, and the first french man she meets think girls ain't worth the same

“They sent us more girls? Girls. Again. My God.” 

Pierre’s pointed French words burst my bubble like tiny arrows. “How do they expect us to get our country back when all they do is send us these flimsy little girls?”

Well, hello to you, Mr. Misogynistic pig.

They stay in Pierre's farm house a little out of Paris. They stay there for a day or so, then they take there bikes... but first they meet Pilot, his actual name is Robbie but to begin with they just call him Pilot.
They make a stop at Pierre's moms brothers place... And it gets raided by "The German bastards", but Rat tells them so they can get their cute self's out in time.
They ride most the way to Paris when the meet  couple of Germans, Denise (another spy) and Robbie drive on like a couple, Adele drives slowly after them... but the Germans have a flat so she has to give her bike away... she gets a lift from a nice Dr. François Devereux... BTW his wife is a BITCH.

The safe house she is supposed to get to is... compromised.

She goes to François house, he gets her to Estelle a lady that takes people in... what ever that means

“Why did you introduce me to that German officer?” I ask, rubbing my achy arms. 

“Now, in his mind, you are my great-niece, Adele. He will not waste time inquiring about you, as he might if we had said nothing. You will fade from his view and he will move on to someone else. If you behave as though you are keeping secrets, the Germans will suspect you are keeping secrets.” 

I can see why Dr. Devereux likes this woman."

Well she goes there and becomes good friends with the granddaughter Marie, one day she spots Robbie outside a shop... and she goes to the rescue when a couple of asshole soldiers use him as a punching bag...

Well, she gets back on track with her spying... They have headquarters in the catacombs... Pretty cool... literally, think meeting in an underground mass grave being able to see the skulls and bones... uhm, no thanks.

“... Are you with me, Adele?”

“I am, sir. But I no longer have a bicycle. I gave it to the Germans.” 

“That’s a lavish gift. Before the war I could have bought myself a car for less than the cost of a bicycle now. For what reason did you give yours up, girl?” 

“Well, I wanted to live, sir.” 

“That’s reason enough, I suppose"

She starts to get in contact with an other spy "Anna", in her first rendezvous... kind of spy messenger gives to another messenger, does not go that well... she kind of forgets the secret word... but she gets it done, after that she has her routine with it... until one day Anna doesn't show up. And there is this guy that is following her... turns out he wanted to ask her out

"While a kind man was working up the nerve to ask me on a date, I was working up the nerve to kill him with my bare hands."

Adele is spying on a German fabric, there is a guard that spots her... which end with him promising her a tour around the factory three days later, but she has to draw a picture of his dog Zugar... that by the way seams kind of cute in the "If I'm told I would kill you" kind of way

 Robbie is hiding at a safe house for "downed airmen" (crashed pilots). After he gets his papers they start walking around Paris... where they are followed by Shepherd, a spy that was caught around 0.00000001 second after he landed.

The girls get asked out by a couple of German soldiers... and let me say I have heard about some really bad dates... this was even worse:

1. Adele gets kind of drunk... after 3 glasses of champagne
2. The guys insult the Brits... Denise get all kinds of pissed
3. And Robbie comes to say goodbye...and that he loves her...

“I’ll miss you, Adele. I’m falling in love with you.” 

“Robbie, you don’t love me. In two weeks’ time you’ll be back with your squadron, where you belong. I’ll be just a fading memory. Someone you knew during your adventure in France.” 

“No, Adele.” He takes my hand again and holds it firmly in his. “My feelings for you are real. I won’t forget you. Not when I get back to my squadron. Not ever. And when all this is over, I’ll do whatever it takes to find you again.” 

“Robbie, you have to go now. Please don’t think about me anymore.” 

“But Adele—” 

“I mean it. Concentrate on getting home to your family,” I said, falling to pieces inside. “Stay safe.”  

That is the saddest scene in the book, cause they are so fucking cute together. And of course she breaks both of their hearts...

The next day she goes to Denise's place they have their girl problems as any girl have with her best friend, but it ends rather quickly... cause, oh right they are spy's in war.

And Adele tells Denise about François wife.

"One of my contacts, the doctor I told you about who drove me to Paris, he’s married to a Nazi sympathizer. She was at the Commodore last night. Wearing a German officer.” 

“She’ll get what’s coming to her.” 

“Do you think so?” 

“Haven’t you heard of karma?”

On her way back she stops at a citron pressé  where Anna shows up and gives her a  cork with a message:

"Safe houses compromised. Being followed. Cover irreparably blown. Suspected leak within circuit. Watch your back. Trust no one."

And the girls promise that they can at least always trust each other... and of course you promise that even if you are a double agent... am I the only one thinking that... but hell alone in another country, that if anyone finds out from where you are will probably kill you, it must be a little comforting with at least someone to trust.

She comes to get her tour... but she can't really take notes so she simply has to remember

"May I first say hello to Zucker?” I ask.
I mimic the mispronunciation of boarding school students reciting German for the first time to say, “Hello, Zucker. You are a very good and intelligent dog.”
The praise is part of my act, but I really mean it.
“Did you learn that phrase so you could speak to Zucker?” Gerhard asks.
“I did,” I say, laughing. “Do I need more practice?”
With a polite smile he says, “Yes."

She goes back to the Resistance with her knowledge about the fabric... and of course they plan an attack...

“The factory is producing gun carriers and turrets for German Panzer tanks,” I say. 

Marcus rushes ahead of me to the table. “Panzers! Pierre, did you hear that?” 

“Yes, I heard her. How do you know this?” 

“I toured the factory this morning.”  

 “You toured the factory?”

“Yes.” 

“And how did you manage that?” 

“They mistook me for a student.” 

“They mistook you for a child and then showed you around? I don’t believe it."

Sorry, it was just kind of hilarious, and I simply had to put it in.


But well, she gets to train the newbies and there is this extreme misogynistic asshole... even bigger than Pierre I will just say that itself is an accomplishment... and she shoots him, or to be more precise the tree he is leaning against... and he runs to tell "Daddy" Pierre.
But Pierre simply says the guy has to follow orders... muhahaha... that sounded more evil in my head.

 Later she meets with Bishop and a couple of newbie spy's... seriously one of them talks fucking English in German land... Idiot... and the other has a terrible accent... and Bishop want's her to take one of them in and she goes all commando... so many kinds of awesome

"“Adele, I can’t have Benjamin and Agnes residing in the same house,” Cammerts says. “Agnes will spend a portion of her time with you.”My head snaps up. The agent who spoke English in a public place is going to stay with me? I wouldn’t dream of putting Estelle and her family’s lives at risk. Not for anyone or anything, but especially not for this careless woman I just met. She is not my problem and not my responsibility. I have to draw the line.“No,” I tell him.“Pardon me, Adele?”“I won’t do it. Everyone makes mistakes, but I don’t think Agnes will learn from hers. I can’t take a chance on someone who’s not cut out for this.”"

And the next thing we know Gestapo is after them... and catches them... but of course they escape.
They go back to Pierre's place get the message

“The long sobs of the violins of autumn.”

Meaning the great D-Day is coming... The Invasion Day
and they blow the telephone lines up... BOOM... And Adele losses her hearing for a time, not long but still it must suck and Pierre kisses her... just for your information

Shepherd turns up with this new guy Frank, he is apparently a downed airman... but he isn't me almost kills Denise for her radio... well that ends wit him getting dead... Oh and Pierre shot Shepherd after Adele told Bishop she thought he was double.

“Hi, Pierre.” On the table in front of him is a bottle of red wine. “It’s a little early for wine, isn’t it?”
He brings the bottle to his merlot-tinged lips. When I enter the room he offers it to me.
“You might want to drink this,” he says.
“Why?” Something is very wrong. Pierre refuses to look me in the face. “What happened?”
He takes another long swig. “I killed Shepherd.”

“I’m upset because I’ve become hardened to the things that should sicken me.” He stares out the window. “My life was never perfect, but it was peaceful. It was good. Our family was happy. I’ve seen more misery in the past four years than I did in the eighteen years before them. I don’t know how I got from that time to this one, in which I’m willing to kill a man. What if when this part of my life is over, I’m unable to go back to the person I was? What if I’m damaged forever?”

 Later we find out Denise has abilities as a psychic since she an "sense" the second part of the D-Day transmission will come... and it did.
They blow up the factory... but the Germans shoot Pierre and capture Adele...
She gets tortured first at Gestapo head quarters then at a prison...

 Stars:
4.98
It is really good, just the torture scenes are really gruesome and nightmare worthy... I have a bad habit reading at shit o'clock at night...
And there kind of happens a little to much at the same time a little hard to follow at times


What can you use this book for in real life:
Do what you can for others even if it means risking your self.

Love comes at the weirdest times and places enjoy it.

Such a Rush

Leah is 14 year old, has lived her whole life in a trailer in South California.
At 14 she ducks under the fence and in to the airport to get a job... and learn to fly.
She forges her mothers signature to get flying lessons with Mr. Hall... actually she pretty much demands the lessons.

3 1/2 years later Mr. Halls is dead and his sons Alec and Grayson are taking over the business, Leah thinks it won't last so she says no to the job cause she want's to have a steady job... but of course Grayson won't take no for an answer... so he blackmails her with the forged signature... to work for him and date Alec... fucked up right??

Well, that goes more or less fine until a party at Francie Mahoney’s house, that she dosn't wanna go to... so she dresses like a slut, to show how much she doesn't wanna go, and there it all goes to hell
... or at least for Leah.
Her ex-boyfriend comes on to her... which ends with Grayson pulling him off her and being extremely rude... like more than his usual jackass self.

“Are you drunk?” Grayson asked.“No,” I said haughtily. “That, among other

things, is a condition of my employment.”“Stoned?”“No.”“Then why did you get within a hundred feet of Mark?”

"I shifted my go-to-hell look to Molly. “And I’m sorry you’re not enjoying it. You told Grayson and Alec last night that you decided to be my friend instead of sticking with Ryan because I’m so fun and brazen for a poor girl. Now you’re saying you don’t want me to dress like a whore and stick up for myself when you drag me to a party thrown by your bitch friend who hates me and calls me trash to my face every time she sees me. You need to make up your mind, girlfriend, how you like your charity case.”

There is a tornado... Grayson comes to get her... that ends with a hot make out session in the basement... but Grayson still want's her to keep working Alec so she gets pissed and kicks him out.
The next day Leah, Grayson, Alec and Molly go to the beach to surf... only problem Leah can't surf... or swim... or drive a car.
So she and Grayson have a Heart-to-Heart and another make out session... but he still wants her working Alec... can i just say I think he is one HOTT jackass asshole scumbag assclown fuckward... why is it always the hott ones??!?!?!!?!?

Well, the next day we find out why Grayson wants her to hook up with Alec...

And Leah's mom comes for a visit... to tell that they are moving to California... that afternoon and makes everything go not to hell, but pretty close... Leah has never changed the story she told her mother at 14 that she spent time with her boyfriend the airport, when she was getting flying lessons... and that boyfriend was Grayson.

So they find out about that she freaks and gets her ass out as fast as she can.

Later that night Grayson comes over... they have sex, but he has to leave so Alec doesn't know he has been there... you guessed right he still want's her to work Alec... uhm, but let me get this straight you want the girl you just fucked to keep going out with your brother... well excuse me but WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU FUCKING BASTARD!!!!!!!!!

It ends with her demanding he tell Alec or she  will... but that won't be necessary since he already knows... Molly told, they have history... and he blames her for not being able to be with Molly...Yaay

She confronts Molly and Molly tells her she is a liar and isn't good enough to be a pilot...

Oh and Grayson fired her... the night after  they had sex... yes guys he did that. Asshole.

So she ends up in a plane with her ex-boyfriend, current asshole adrenalin junkie, he gets pissed at her, doesn't watch where he is flying and crashes in to a tree and gets knocked out, she starts the flying but with a damaged plane there isn't much you can do so she crashes...

It all ends fantastic with sugar on top with hearts, rainbows and dancing fucking unicorns.


Stars:4.5
How come anger toward anyone in books can be solved with a "I'm sorry" and some tears... that is not how it happens in real fucking life, we hold dammed grudges, can't get our head out our asses and can stay angry about some little stupid thing for fucking ages, seriously if my best friend told me i wasn't good enough to have my dream job because i was blackmailed to do something, there is no chance she would anything out of me other than "kiss my ass" and "go fuck yourself".'

I would do pretty much anything for my dream and protect the possibility,  Leah had it the same way, she wanted to be a pilot, so she did what she had to so that wouldn't be jeopardized .. oh and who falls i love with their blackmailer , i know she had a crush on him since 14, but really girl, there are 2 a man who loves a girl doesn't do: beat/rape her and blackmail her or just in general makes her do something she don't want to do... like, lets say DATE HIS FUCKING BROTHER.


What can you use this book for in real life:
Take a chance and it might lead to something better...maybe something like love.

And never go flying with adrenalin junkies it might get you killed